[aura: guilty for not doing the chem revision waiting upstairs]

..heh, i hate my blogg. the blogger itself is always not loading properly and the pathetic-techie i am, cant even figure out how to twiddle with the html templates to make it look decently nice. well, whatever.

raining now..lights not on so its pretty dark and Amy Lee's voice wafting [?] in the background...the perfect atmosphere for doom+gloom..which is what id pretti much end up if i dont buck up in skule.
as much as i would like to be radical and not give a fuck about my studies and somehow twiddle fate so that i'll end up a succesful entrepeneur or what-shit, i cant. the REALLY sad truth is, i dont quite dare step out of this bloody mainstream. im not sure what id do without it cuz you know why?
the thought and absolute possibility of failure. hmph. i dont mind wading in the other streams but to completely abandon what i noe is reliable and..safe. to jump into something that might land me god-noes-where without a safety net..huh. i AM pathetic.

i am sad.

all i know is that i AM going to drop a.maths next year and im not going to give a fuck about what JCs and courses that wont be available to me because --gasp-- i decided not to have the very 'essential' a.maths in my record thang. hello? isnt that why they call it ADDITIONAL maths?
the decision to drop was so clear in my head until i started hearing all-round gasping from everybody and even worse, disappointed sighing.

but geez- i dont even know where i left my a.maths book.

so fuck a.maths.