whoop-dee-doo.

i'm currently reading this chunk of a book on philosophy. i'm not quite sure why i picked it up but i suppose i was bored with reading fiction and i haven't been able to find any good suspense/crime authors recently SO.
anyway, it's called Confessions of a Philosopher. i thought it would be a good start in case i do get seriously interested in philosophy since it covers general concepts of philosophy itself, the philosophers who helped the author form his ideas and own concept etc.
i found it a rather challenging but satisying read. i would read the first few pages of each chapter, so absolutely absorbed and at times, in awe and then halfway through the chapter, the words in Times New Roman would start blurring and my brain would stop receiving the ideas that's being conveyed.

really.

after awhile, my brain just STOPS receiving. usually at this point, i fall asleep. i suppose for me, when i'm reading something as deep as philosophy, i cannot consume the entire hunk of information at one go. i'm better off reading small chunks and putting it away to digest the ideas and come up with my own opinions etc.
which was probably why i was rather quiet during our "intelligent conversation" at starbuck with the CAPpers. i was busy listening and combing through what bern was saying and hence, mind could not come up with own opinions because it was too busy dissecting what SHE was saying lol. which was also why, it was only hours after i analysed the whole thingy that i came up with my own opinions. which is also why, i can never be a debater.
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i had a nice laugh with my friends after school today.

haven't had one in a long time really. laughing at comical instances that would otherwise on other occasions, make no sense at all let alone, be funny.

so fast-forward moments of laughter and not-so-great food. we were going out of the "restaurant" when this guy went up to my friend and asked her for her number.

i was quite surprised at this because i've always considered the other two faaar prettier than she is. not in a bitchy way, but from an objective perspective. it's not that SHE'S ugly, it's just that..she looks like a typical pretty, slightly lian-ish chinese girl. as compared to my other friends, who were in my opinion gorgeous because their unique prettiness.
i suppose the two guys never realized how pretty my other friends were because their looks are the kind that grows on you and when you look again, you realize - woah.
so is that what guys want? the /normal/ ones? i think they do.
huh. and don't for a second think i'm "jealous" at the lack of attention. i hardly ever get asked for my number by guys because a] i'm malay and b] i don't behave like one. so i kinda am lost in-between. i got over it a long time ago.

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*merf. i just saw my friend's MSN nick. their preparing for their band com this saturday and it said how sometimes, she sees their Sir staring quietly at the empty field. and she says it as if it's a profound thing. erm, hello? he's just contemplating OMG, WILL OUR BAND FINALLY ACHIEVE BEST BAND AFTER DECADES OF DEFEAT? *sighs*