i didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away

for some reason [ie. impulsive-osity], i bought robbie william's first album. the title above is a line from one of his songs.
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it's so much better than his future crap like Rock DJ.
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i realize that this year, i've been having alot of..unwanted epiphanies. i suppose everyone grows through them - wish i could do without them.

i think, it is better and healthier for me to admit that i've been growing apart with my best friend and i know it's probably, a lot my fault. hence, my resentment towards it isnt fair at all is it?

and i should probably do something about it. but i don't know what to do.
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i never know anything anymore.
there's alot more stuff simmering but yeah, well.