wiNky here speaking

today, i was a house elf. my clothes were splattered with batter and traces of unknown spices and i was splattered by hot oil thrice. i vacuumed, swept, carried, polished the walls, weave carpets, washed laundry by the river nearby.
ok. so i mite be exaggerating. but hardly!

..surprisingly tho, amongts the many awkward moments, there were times that were truly enjoyable. but SHORT, BRIEF moments...of mainly marshmallow toasting and hiding in my room wif my cousins and blasting my nickleback cd.

it seems weird tho that i find all this social events hugely disconcerting and uncomfortable. it sucketh the most when ur sitting there with all your relatives interogatting you on your
a) exam results. in which u either tell them the truth that u did horrible and they shaddup OR u lie betwn ur teeth and say u did well. they smile, self-satisfied as if their presence in your life had an impact in your exam results.
b) whose house you visited earlier. for this Q, the easiest way out is to say 'nah, we were from home'. in the worst situati0n where you say u wnet to so-and-so's house, they ACTUALLY get offended by the fact that you visited them 2nd and start GRUMBLING!
c)school life. this is by far, the most common- so they def throw this out when they for some reason want to start a convo. why ppl, WHY??? it's so deadly boring. do you REALLI wna noe abt me and the causes of my detention? or the fact that the DM constantly threatens me wif suspension? or that i freq take a snooze durinf lesson?
*well, mebbe i shud one dae. they'll probab faint from shock and peace will reign once more.

and you know what comment i find the most upsetting???

"my, you sure have grown!!"

hah. i have NOT grown a millimeter since last year when you last saw me and if you're saying grown as in horizontally, thank you veru much for noticing my wider girdth.

i hate socialising with ppl im not comfortable with. to borrow from bern, it makes me *twitch*. i hate it!!!! argh! this is my house. it's meant for us 5 ppl ONLY! especially when i see you for wad, once a year?? i dont appreciate having to make a HEE-UGE effort making the house decent for guests.
bah, humbug.

and i do NOT like being obligated to visit other ppl i hardly noe, sitting there listning to their convo and eating the same food that's at EVERBODY else's house!!! i do not like facing the anxiety that comes when i freak out abt having to be in a crowd of ppl i hardly noe, making fake civil convoz just to fill up space.

i am a complete misantrope when it comes to forced socialising.

again, strangely tho..the moment the guests arrive or in the situation wen im the guest, i immediately, sub-consciously plaster a smile on and a saccharine 'im interested in whatver you have to say' voice. ::::::::scary::::::::::