Feel the need to do something reckless and drastic. Might have something to do with turning 21 recently, and there's just a lot of tension and unfulfilled-ness in there that I am keeping under wraps.

But I already got my hair cut (looks super cool btw) and bought new shoes. What else, what else.

Have been painting a lot (self-portrait assignments) and you'd think that would help, but not really. All that close observation and introspection is just making me more tense.